When did you realize it is PPD?

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Permalink Reply by Alisa Bowman on November 29, 2008 at 5:31pm

I didn't realize I had PPD until nearly 4 years later. I was reading The Female Brain. She described it in there and I got one of those prickly sensations like, "Crap, she just described me!" Now I can spot it in new mothers almost instantly. I think the experts do us all a disservice with their definition of it as being disinterested in the baby. That might be true for some moms with PPD, but I wasn't disinterested. I was overwhelmed, depressed, anxious, sad.... so not myself. But I never put her down. In fact the carrying her everywhere and not letting other people hold her was a part of the dysfunction.

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Permalink Reply by Julie maloney on December 3, 2008 at 4:07pm

Yeah, even though I thought I was good once I was medicated a few months ago, I noticed I'm still really short tempered-more than usual and about every 3 days I just want to site down with a vat of frosting and a case of beer and forgot I exist.

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Permalink Reply by InfantBows on February 10, 2009 at 12:02pm

Hi! I just had my 5th baby and I am just starting to call it PPD. I have been just blaming it on my hormones being all out of whack. Which is probably the same thing, just easier for me to say.

I don't seem to have the same symptoms as the moms here so far, but some of them are too hard for me to want to say. I have been here three times and just now decided to type.

I hold my baby constantly and only do things that have to be done. Like dinner, load the dishwasher, and an occasional load of laundry. I am coasting and way behind on my "Mom" duties. I would rather sit in front of my computer and hold the baby. Feeling really depressed and guilty.

Here is the hard part...

Sometime violent images come into my head (The first week was the worst). This is scary to write, because you think others will report you as one of those moms who kill their children. It's not like that. Horrible visions of violent thoughts come into my head that shake me up. It's not something I would ever dream of doing. Where do these thought come from? I used to be terrified to tell anyone this was happening. By child #3, I decided to tell my husband. He was really concerned, but supportive. I have since told a close sister-in-law (since I have no sisters) and she explained to me this is having PPD. She did this too. I think this so hard to talk about that most women think they are a little crazy and too scared to tell anyone. This is the only reason I have decided to say this. I want others to know they are not alone. I know caffiene can contribute to this, but I have not had this for a very long time (unless you count chocolate).

I have the crying too. It doesn't take much for me to get really upset with my kids, and I find myself apologizing a lot. I cry really easy and constantly feel drained. This may be due to the lack of sleep.

I love being a mom, and holding these babies. I just wish all of me could enjoy this time.
I hope this helps someone out there. Great group idea!

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Permalink Reply by Denise on February 13, 2009 at 9:55am

I have had a mild case of depression for years. Honestly, it's when I stopped eating and spent most of my time sleeping and or crying. My hubby made me go to the doctor. My PPD is also paired with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) because of the issues in my pregnancy and what I went through. It's been a very hard 8 months!

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Permalink Reply by Analee Espinal on June 6, 2009 at 9:28am

I gave birth April 22, 2009 and right after the csection, I felt different I didnt want to hold the baby and I felt different and not myself. I thought it was all the medication given to me but when I left the hospital and went home every thing got worst. I thought it was the blues but it is actually PPD. The first two weeks I couldnt sleep I barely slept two hours a day even if I tried on my own I was extremely anxious and scared all I wanted was to go to the hospital everyday .... and all they would given me is Ambien, which sucked. after that I started seeing a psychiatrist who prescribed me Klonopin to sleep and it helped but my feelings got intense I felt less anxious but then I began to cry more and violent thoughts would cross my mind and I feel my emotions numb all I could do is cry and feel nervous. Three days ago My doc prescibed me Lexapro cause she says Im definetely depressed.

Is anyone else Taking anything and going through similar?

Good luck to all and God Bless... we all going to be fine.

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