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Tracy Osmer
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Hello Everyone - Just a SUPER QUICK NOTE. I have been off for a few days and won't be on again for several more. My 2 year old daughter has bacterial pneumonia. She has a large hazy mass in her right lung lobe. She is very, very sick. High fevers,...
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- QUICK NOTE: My 2 year old daughter has bacterial pneumonia. She was in the hospital for 3 days, but she is home now. She is still so sick with high fevers & chest pain......she just cries and cries. This has been my first free second to ge on Tw. Moms. I will try to update, as my daughter permits :( Thanks and sorry about my lack of replies : If anyone needs me, try my yahoo email, as I can access that while I lay on the couch and commiserate with my poor Ava-Grace Anna. Thanks for understanding about my lack of replies, I miss all of you :) tracyleecarver@yahoo.com (Jenn (W.- K.) - email me, so sorry about this.........Tracy
I am a stay-at-home mom of 4. My oldest 2 attend online charter school (go PAVCS!), and my younger two are toddlers. I have a degree in English (Lit). Happily married and we have 3 hermit crabs and 2 cats as well!! I have also begun writing my first book, which has proven difficult, emotionally draining and personally rewarding. It is like pulling teeth to get myself to get some details out, but I am still plugging away:)
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- mommyhood, blogging, home & garden, special needs children, technology, social media, crafting, twitter, the arts, teen moms, work-at-home, politics, green living, religion, travel, fashion and beauty, fitness, weight loss, movies, writing, reality tv, breastfeeding, law, decorating, tattoos
"I looked on child rearing not only as a work of love and duty but as a profession that was fully as interesting and challenging as any honorable profession in the world and one that demanded the best I could bring to it." -- Rose Kennedy
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- At 5:08pm on April 3, 2009,
jennifer white-kimbrough said…
- Hey Tracy! It's Friday evening and I just got home a little while ago. So sorry I haven't got back to you sooner. There's another thing we have in common - I also worry about how I come across to people. I've been worrying about if I'm getting on your nerves by posting so many comments. I've been so tired the last couple of days, I haven't even turned my computer on. We could have e-mailed each other while I was working in the shipping office, but I can't do it with the job I have now. I wish I could! That's one of the few things I miss about being in the shipping office. I definitely don't miss my perverted boss though! How are you and your kids doing? I am glad it's finally the weekend even though I have tons of housework to do. Ethan and Ryan are pretty good about helping out but Brett has to be threatened or bribed just to clean his room. He will be 13 in June and he is already acting like a teenager. His body is going through all kinds of changes and he has a big crush on a girl named Summer. I wanted to ask your opinion on if you think I should try to get in touch with my half brother and sisters. We didn't grow up together (I only saw them on holidays) and I haven't seen or heard from them in years. My sister Becky and I used to talk on the phone and write a lot of letters, but she hates our mom and she seems to want to cut off all contact with all of mom's family. Do you think it's worth it or do you think I'd just be opening a can of worms? I am a true Libra - I weigh all my decisions until I just end up confusing myself with what ifs. Just wondered what you think. I know you have been through a lot and it has made you a really understanding person. The stuff your biological dad tried to do (trying to turn your son against you) reminds me of my ex husband's mom and dad. When he remarried, they wanted Brett and Ryan to live with their dad and his new wife because she doesn't work and she could be a full time mom to them. In their eyes, this made her superior to me (just a single, working mom). Needless to say, I waas very hurt and angry, but nothing ever came of it because they eventually saw her true colors (she's on a lot of drugs) and now they don't even like her. I have to try to tune out a lot of things they've done and said because if I didn't I would be even more of an emotional wreck than I already am. I've had to learn the hard way that some people can bring you down really low if you let them. Sometimes when I tell my friend Betty about certain situations, she can help me see things a lot more clearly. I tend to act on emotions rather than rational thought. I know that sounds terrible, but that's me. Brett needs to use the house phone so I need to go. Hope you're okay and can posy back soon. Jen
- At 11:14am on April 2, 2009,
Ann Duncan said…
- Hi, Tracy :) How you be? Just wondering if you've ever heard of EFT? I invite you to view the video clip at www.emofree.com It's something that has blessed my family and so many others SOOO much!
Blessings...
- At 6:24pm on March 31, 2009,
jennifer white-kimbrough said…
- Hi Tracy! After a VERY long day at work, and an even longer evening of fixing dinner and doing laundry, I finally had time to check my TwitterMoms page. I had hoped to hear from you, and I'm so glad you had time to comment back. I know you are really busy with your kids and I can imagine how tired you must be at the end of each day. It's great that your husband will watch the kids so you can have some time to yourself. I would give almost anything for a weekend by myself to just sleep, eat, and read. Brett and Ryan only see their dad every now and then because of his drinking problem, and then it's supervised by his mom and only lasts a few hours. Ethan sees his dad for two or three hours on Friday and Saturday. We've already been to court once to set up a temporary parenting plan, and he can have more time with Ethan, but he never takes it. So I try to cram all my shopping and errands into the small amount of time they're gone. It makes me feel guilty, but I crave time alone the way some people crave chocolate. Probably because I have so little time to get eveything done. I get so tired and frustrated it makes me want to cry. I love my boys so much, but I am starting to feel like I'm all used up and it is so hard to find the energy to get through the day. I guess my main problem is I feel like there's no one to count on if I get sick or just plain tired. I really admire you for having the patience and dedication to homeschool your kids. And you still somehow find time to write!! Sometimes I think work is almost like an escape for me. I concentrate on work instead of worries and problems. I was a secretary in the shipping office until my boss started trying to get too friendly (he is a married man but he asks girls out all the time) and I transferred to quality control. I get to spend time with my friend Betty and I can have adult conversations all day ( I don't have much of a social life outside of work). I met a really great guy (at least he seems to be) at work, but I'm afraid to let it go anywhere because technically I am still married. So we just talk at work and on the phone. I went for a walk with him at a park near my house (would that be considered a date?) a few times but it hasn't went any farther than that. Sometimes he leaves roses in my car which is really sweet. But I think I have really bad judgement when it comes to men and I am afraid of making a big mistake. Even though Ethan's dad is seeing other people, he is so jealous about another man possibly getting close to Ethan. He has SUCH a BAD temper, I am afraid of what he would do if I did get serious about someone. He has an attitude like if he can't be with me, then he doesn't want to see me be happy with someone else. I seriously regret marrying him - I thought I was doing the right thing for Ethan's sake but it has all blown up in my face. I feel like a failure sometimes because I just feel like nothing I do is ever ENOUGH. I recently took a medical assistant course, but I have yet to find a job in the medical field. I know I sound like I'm full of doom and gloom today, I guess it's just been one of those days. I am really honored that you would want me to take a look at your writing - I would be happy to whenever you want me to! I hope we don't lose touch because I am already beginning to depend on your thoughts and opinions. The more you tell me about yourself, the more I feel like I can open up to you. Actually, there are so many things I'd like to talk to you about I wouldn't even know where to begin! So I will try to tell you things bit by bit. I don't completely open up to very many people, but I truly feel like you understand. My e-mail address is jenandboys@netzero.com if you ever need or want to send anything. I would like to write more tonight but I am exhausted. Brett is spending the night with his friend Dylan tomorrow and I need to help get all his stuff together. I need to try to get some extra sleep because I have been having a terrible time making myself get up in the mornings. Without coffee, I don't know how I would ever get going. Tomorrow, I hope I have time to tell you about my half brother and half sisters (I didn't see them much as I was growing up). I'd like to know if you think I should try to get in touch with them or just leave it alone. Hope to hear from you tomorrow - Jen
- At 6:52pm on March 30, 2009,
jennifer white-kimbrough said…
- Hey Tracy! I thought I would check to see if you posted any comments before I went to bed and I was SO glad to see you did! I really look forward to hearing from you because you seem so understanding and non-judgemental. Also, we have so much in common. I'm not very close to most of my family because I wasn't around them much when I was growing up (I lived with my grandmother and she died while I was pregnant with Ryan). So friends are so important to me. I work with my friend Betty, and without her, I just don't know if I could have survived the past year. She is a lot older than me (I'm 37 and she's 61) but she is great to talk to. I told her that you and I are getting to know each other and that I feel like I actually know you even though we've never met. I think we've crossed paths for a purpose. It seems like Ryan and Nicholas share some of the same type of history. When I was married to Brett and Ryan's dad, he walked out on us because he was so upset when I got pregnant with Ryan. I got pregnant when Brett was just 3 months old and their dad didn't want another baby. Some of my friends tried to talk me into getting an abortion, but for me that was out of the question. I feel like I formed such a strong bond with Ryan even before he was born because I was the only one who wanted him. His dad had a drinking problem and he cheated on me also. He was tested recently to see if he is bipolar, but I don't know the results of the test. We don't talk much because he is remarried and his wife is really jealous. Ryan doesn't want to see his dad's problems, he only sees the love he has for him. We have been divorced almost 6 years, but Ryan still has hope. I think he is convinced if me and his dad were together it would solve all our problems and eveyone would live happily ever after. I met Ethan's dad during the divorce and Brett and Ryan have never been close to him. They will joke around with him a little bit, but for the most part I think they just tolerated him because of Ethan. We got married when Ethan was 2 years old. We wanted to try to be a family for Ethan's sake but it didn't work out. We've been separated for several months now and I filed for divorce. I think Brett and Ryan both have it in their heads that marriage is a bad idea and seldom works out. And for that I am truly sorry. My bad choices have negatively affected them. None of my boys have a true male role model in my opinion. So I guess I should'nt be suprised that poor Ryan has so many problems. Brett adjusts to things really easily and bad things just roll off him like water off a duck's back. Ethan is loud and has a lot of his dad's personality. This combined with the fact that he's the baby of the family seems to really affect Ryan. I know this sounds terrible, but Ryan has even said he wishes Ethan was never born because he liked it better when it was just me, him, and Brett. I know I have to convince someone to help him - his doctor is kind of shrugging it all off. The boys are my only TRUE family and I would do anything for them. They are all that keeps me trying. I wish I could fix everything for them. I can't turn to my mom or dad - my mom has withdrawn from eveyone and my dad is a major alcoholic. I wasn't allowed to see him when I was growing up. I couldn't understand my granny's need to protect me from him til I had children of my own. I don't talk about these things very often and I hope you don't feel like I just unloaded all my baggage on you. Only a small handful of people know these things - I know that some people can be really critical of your family's history. But I want you to know that it has been really helpful for me to be able to talk to you and you have helped me more than you know - by listening to me and by trusting me with your own thoughts and opinions. A good friend can brighten any day. I have to get in bed (work tomorrow) but I will get back to you soon. Hope you and your kids had a good day. Jen
- At 8:43am on March 29, 2009,
jennifer white-kimbrough said…
- Hi Tracy! It's Sunday morning and I just turned on my computer. It's great to hear from you! It definitely sounds like we have a lot in common. There is a big age difference in my boys also. Brett is twelve, Ryan is eleven, and Ethan is four. I think Ryan resents Ethan - they don't get along well at all and it really worries me. Ethan has a lot of bad behavior that I never had to deal with when the older boys were his age. When he acts up, it sends Ryan into a tailspin. Ryan also holds on to the wish that me and his dad will get back together someday (we are divorced). I have tried to be firm about the fact that this will never happen while still trying to spare his feelings. His doctor told me to give him some time to adjust to all this, but it's been a while and I know it's time to do something. His grandparents (my exes' mom and dad) are really against antidepressants (they don't even know I take them) and they aren't shy about voicing their opinions. They think I just want to medicate Ryan so I won't have to deal with some of his behaviors. I'm not saying Ryan is my favorite (beause I know how damaging playing favorites can be), but I can truly say I feel some of his feelings because I've experienced them myself and I feel a very strong connection to him as a result of that. I grew up with my grandmother and I never felt like I could ask her for help or tell her how I felt because she felt like discussing your emotions was a form of complaining. I wasn't around my mom a lot, but looking back, I think she and my granny both suffered from depression and suppressed feelings. They just never talked about it or tried to seek help. I don't think they even realized that's what was wrong. They were both very nervous, unhappy, critical people. I want to do all I can to let my boys know I will always be there for them no matter what. I can certainly understand your desire for a daughter and I'm sorry she is having health prolems. I'm sure you love her very much and you sound like a wonderful mother. Growing up, I always hoped for a little girl of my own and I can definitely understand wanting to have that mother-daughter connection. I miscarried a baby girl before my boys were born and I still mourn for her after all these years. I think that is one source of the sadness I constantly feel. So often, I feel like I am locked in a never ending battle with my mind and emotions. I wish I could just snap out of it. I really enjoy getting to know you and I already value your friendship and opinions. Feel free to post comments whenever you feel like it and don't worry about how long they are. Just look at how long this one is! It can be really hard to find people who are easy to talk to and truly connect with, so I am so thankful for you. I will get back to you soon, but right now I have a hot date with an overflowing sink of dirty dishes!
- At 11:26am on March 28, 2009,
SexyBabyJ said…
- Welcome to the site and thank you for joining the blend families group.
- At 10:14am on March 28, 2009,
jennifer white-kimbrough said…
- Hi Tracy! This is Jennifer. This is Saturday and I just read your post. I haven't even had time to turn my computer on all week til today. I've had an exhausting week at work and right now I feel so stressed out, it's like a war is going on inside my head. I wanted to thank you for some of the information you included in your post. My friend Betty also takes Effexor and she said it made a world of difference for her. I will definitely ask my doctor if she thinks it might be right for me. I have read a little about Wellbutrin and it sounds like it may be helpful too. I recently tried to stop taking my antidepessant and had disastrous results. I was such a mess, I could hardly stand myself. I am taking Zoloft now, but it just doesn't seem to be working well at all. Do you also suffer from low energy? I am not sure if this is a side effect from the medication or just one of the symptoms of depression. I haven't had a really bad panic attack in a while, but I do fear them. I get so frustrated because I know I do have a lot to be thankful for in my life, and I feel like I should somehow be able to overcome all these bad feelings on my own. I am afraid my boys will be affected by some of my negative emotions. I have noticed that my son Ryan is showing some of the symptoms and emotions I felt when I was his age(he's 11). It scares me to death! I don't want him to suffer some of the feelings I've experienced. Please feel free to post more comments whenever you feel like it - I would be glad to hear from you. And good luck with your book! I think writing can be really therapeutic and I admire you for finding the time and energy to take on such a big task.
- At 3:52pm on March 22, 2009,
Ann Duncan said…
- Tracy, so good to hear your thoughts on this :) Especially since I share so many of them!
I'll e-mail you directly and I do look forward to discussing it with you.
Blessings!
- At 7:07pm on March 20, 2009,
Ann Duncan said…
- My youngest and I have been to the Wilkes-Barre area several times on business. Fun business :)
Simple can be wonderful, yes??? For me today it was brainstorming with my youngest. Such a delight.
I invite you, should you be so inclined, to visit my blog at www.myspace.com/annduncan to see why I value that 'best question' so highly in my daily life! Would love your thoughts on it :)
Blessings...
- At 11:26pm on March 19, 2009,
Ann Duncan said…
- Welcome to Nourishing Moms, Tracy. And I hope your Twittermoms experience proves as warm and wonderful as it has for so many of us. Which 'corner' of PA are you in?
Blessings!
