Hubby still surprises me

On Monday, hubby brought up the money issue with my business again. It comes up every so often that I'm not yet making as much as I would be if I went back to working a regular job. This time I finally told him that I was doing everything I could to make the business HUGELY successful but that it takes time. I told him that if he really felt I needed to be contributing more to the family (it's not like he doesn't make enough to support us) that I'd do what he wanted but he'd probably be losing much of his time with me because I'd still be working to grow my business.

I told him that I felt all my hopes and dreams were being taken away and that I knew I'd go back to having daily migraines and be in complete misery if I had to go back to work. We left it that I would help him in his business a little more and see how it goes (that's how it gets left every time).

Last night Hubby sat down and told me that he realized my happiness was much more important than him having more STUFF. He explained that he was at a point in his life that he was looking back at what he has had and not feeling satisfied. But he was also reflecting on his first wife that was really nothing more than a leech for which he would never have been able to earn enough to please her. I told him that, while I'd love to have MORE in our lives (who wouldn't) I was also very happy at the moment. I could live without more big boy toys, clothes and purses, beauty treatments and trips if it meant I didn't have to go back to working a regular job and could continue to focus on building my business.

I think these "things" are what make people unhappy. They work so very hard to get more "things" that they sacrifice the happiness they expect the things to give them. We have enough.

So now I can stop stressing over whether or not he's going to crack down on me again and just get focused on my ultimate goal, to let him retire and me do all the work!

I really do love him with every bone in my body and have never felt loved as much by any person.